The Past of Me

I am forever lost in the dream of us

Caught in the light of what we use to have

A past I can’t forget

And I hate myself for losing you

And I hate myself for letting you go

And now you moved on with life

Something that I despise

Does she love you like I did?

Like I do

Like I always will

Do you share your heart with her?

Like you did with me

Does she take care of it?

Do she do any harm

I bet she don’t

Cause I bet she is perfect

Cause if she wasn’t

You would be here with me right now

I dream about you every night

Wishing for you

Wondering why your not here

But I know

I know I mess up

When we started talking about life plans

And my plans didn’t match yours

And my plans were all about me

Selfishly

It was I

Taking you for granted

So I want to know

Does she make you laugh like I did?

Does she make you smile like I did?

Do her plans include you?

I bet they do

A girl is crazy to waste a life without you

Like me

And now I see

How much you needed me

And how I left you hanging

And it was stinging

That heart of yours

When I go for walks

I take the routes we went

Think about how it was spent

Does she hold your hand?

Does she understand?

Just how lucky she is

I am forever lost in the dream that was us

It’s real sad

A past I can’t forget

That I will admit

Was the best ever.